Did it ever happen to YOU?????

Did it ever happen to you that you are in a room full of people but still you miss someone? Did it ever happen to you that you are walking alone but you feel someone walking by your side? Did it ever happen to you that the only person you really want to talk to, you can’t anymore? Did it ever happen to you that your eyes swell up with tears of wanting something so bad but you know you can’t have it back anymore? Did it ever happen that you wake up in the middle of the night only to find your pillow wet with the tears you shed during your sleep? Did it ever happen to you that you are walking bare feet on broken glass but you can’t feel a thing? Did it ever happen to you that everything you ever planned, everything you ever wanted was right infront of you but all you could do was look at it and not have it? Did ever happen to you that the person who loved you the most in the world; didn’t anymore? Did it ever happen to you that you fell so hard that not only did it break your ribs and bones but also your dreams and heart ?????
People tell me when god closes one door, he also opens another. But what if you don’t want the other door? What if all you want is what is behind the closed door ? Does it ever open back again? They say you have to fight for everything in life. But what do you do when you don’t know what you are fighting for? And what do you do when the person you have to fight against is- YOU!!!!
People say-
“Life’s greatest battles are the ones fought against ONESELF. “
One can lose battles with others many a times but the ones lost against oneself are the ones which mark one’s failure, because one loses a part of himself in it.
Maybe that’s the reason why we see so many successful failures around us today. They fight against the entire world to achieve what they aim for but in the process they forget to fight against their own monstrous vices which engulfs a part of them each day.
Did this ever happen to you????????

MEMORIES.........

As I got up this morning I felt an uneasiness sweep me. I took a look at the watch and it blinked back 4:55am at me. I've been surprising myself with my super improving levels of insomania each day now. I tossed and turned on the bed fighting to put myself back to slumber but all in vain. Finally I gave up and got dressed to get back to hell. Well you must be wondering what is hell? It is the place I study in. Not that it's hellish in any ordinary way but everytime I step into it I get nostalgic and a gust of melancholy hits me hard on my face. Lets just say my memories associated with it are not pleasant and a few of them which were- were like the LILY. Short lived but yes very beautiful indeed. On my way to class I picked up the newspaper and scanned the headlines when a piece of news attracted my attention. A MOLECULE THAT DELETES MEMORY!!! Now that's something all of us would like to get hold of. We all have memories we want to get rid of or never think of ever again. But my recent experience has only proved that the things we want to forget the most are the ones we think of the most! It's at these testing times that we realise how good our memories are. Well this molecule I was reading about was developed by scientists in Brooklyn which could make one forget a chronic fear, traumatic loss or even a bad habit. As I further read on my spirits were soaring high. I could finally free myself from the memories tormenting me for the past few months. But as I finished the article I was left with a dilemma. Was it the solution to my tormented sleepless nights? Did i really want to get rid of those memories?

As I struggled with my own thoughts throughout the day I realised sabotaging my memories was not the answer but embracing them was. And maybe I wouldn't call this place hell if I wasn't embroiling but pacifying my emotions associated with those memories.

All great love stories have tragic endings????

This is about a couple I know who loved each other immensely but fate had something else in store for them. When they first met they were totally into each other. They talked from dawn to dusk and tried to be together in every possible way they could. They talked and learned about new things each day. It was more like a parent-child relationship than lovers. Sweet and adorable. When I looked at them I almost envied them for what they shared. A companionship some people look for throughout their lives but very few are blessed with it. Unlike other couples they were not unsure or afraid to commit what they wanted- to spend their lives together forever. And maybe that’s why I m writing about them. Because today I find myself amongst people who are simply fooling around, not ready to admit that they might actually love and need somebody. This is something I’ll never understand.
Well as I was saying this couple was special in their own unique ways but they were human like you and me. They had their own share of fights and arguments and misunderstandings. But they always thought their love could overcome it all. But what they didn’t know was SATAN himself was plotting against them. No matter how hard they tried it just didn’t work. And on the Sabbath day of the love month hell broke loose. The guy disappeared. He vanished into thin air. The girl kept calling him, messaged him and tried everything she could to find him but all efforts went in vain. The guy never returned. The girl cried for days and nights and even at times thought of ending her life but like they say- life and death are never in our hands. They come when they want to and how they want to. One cannot rush life or death.
She went crazy. She hardly ate, never slept and cried throughout her waking hours. What happened to the guy no one knows . Did he leave her just because of a fight or did something actually happen to him? Did he not love her anymore that he could not see her tears or was he faking it all along? Guess we’ll never know. My friend is still in love with him and even if I really want to hate him but the way she talks about him makes me want to believe that he is a wonderful person. How can even SATAN see two wonderful people who love each other boundlessly be separated for reasons they no longer even remember!