2013 has been a year of loss and learning. I had failed academically, professionally, personally and health-wise. It was the year when the world rejected me….. Sometimes for not being good enough, sometimes for being an outsider, sometimes for not having a social status as good as theirs.
It was a year I had lost it all. My faith in humanity, my love and my courage……. Here I was all alone in a foreign land on one of the most celebrated festivals of the year, Christmas and I had just got the news that one of my family member had expired. I sat on my bed for a long time…. unable to grasp the things that were going around me.
Everything was changing, everybody was changing. Change is good right???? But then why did it feel so wrong. Here I was sad for the things and situations I couldn't change and wanted them to or for the things and people changing when I didn't want them to. Some wise man once said something like this… 'Change the things you can and let go of the things you can't.' Well dear Mr Wise Man…… Let me tell you something….. Its not as easy as you make it sound!!!!!
And the weirdest thing about this year was… It ended exactly the way it started for me….. with rain pouring all over me…. drenching and freezing me.
They say God never gives you more than you can handle….. but I wish he didn't trust me so much. Goodbye 2013.....No….I don't hate you and I will never forget you…..But I do sincerely wish that you won't haunt me anymore…..
